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CYG: Mourning Ritual

Day 2: Mourning Ritual

I have always thought my life should be a movie, even when I was little. I was SO dramatic as a child (my family is reading this now thinking, “You still are…”). Now, in my adult life, things happen to me and I look around for the hidden camera, because seriously? THIS.CAN’T.BE.REAL.LIFE! I hope you read that with hand claps. My life could be a comedy, drama, at times an action, and I’m a walking chick flick. Maybe, that’s why I wasn’t usually phased the mentioning of houses being bugged, because my house should have had hidden cameras (yeah, I have also taken up satire).
Anyway, the reason I bring this up is because, just like my overly dramatic life, all good movies have a soundtracks. My soundtrack goes back to my favorite assignment given to me my freshman year in college. Pick 15 songs that you relate most to and write a paragraph about how you relate. I don’t still write about how they relate, but I still keep a rotating list of 15 songs that relate most to my life, now. Although, I could call it “Soundtrack to My Life,” the playlist is still called “My Life Sounds Like,” because that’s what the assignment was called.
Back in July of 2016, this was myplaylist. Miscarriage was still really new to me, and I was grieving in another way. I still have that playlist on my phone, and I listen to it when I am feeling down because this is not where my life should be and I am supposed to be a mom! I could have a 9 month old, and at times I get sad. I’m sad because I don’t get to raise my baby. I don’t have my family of 3. That’s not the man I married. So I listen to my playlist.
Other times, I am happy. I am proud.  I am healing. I’m moving on. But, I’m also sad. Here is my current playlist. Here I am. Here is what My Life Sounds Like (with no paragraphs, so you can fill in the story):
  1.  Save Myself by Ed Sheeran
  2.  Own It by Bailey Bryan
  3.  Again by Jessie Clark Funk
  4.  Good Girl Down by Angaleena Presley
  5.  Details in The Fabric ft. James Morrison by Jason Mraz
  6.  Dear Topanga by Taylor Ray Holbrook
  7.  A Little Dive Bar in Dahlonega by Ashley McBryde
  8.  Cheers To the Fall by Andra Day
  9.  Subway Car by Marc E. Bassy
  10.  Hymn by Kesha
  11.  The Dance by Garth Brooks
  12.  Save As Draft by Katy Perry
  13.  God Help Me by Plumb
  14.  No Such Thing as a Broken Heart by Old Dominion
  15.  Back to You ft. Bebe Rexha, Digital Farm Animals by Louis Tomlinson




And while listening to music is my mourning ritual, making my bed and having a cup of coffee is my morning ritual.



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